emank gw yg aneh... apa gw yg mulai gak bisa communicate dgn orang2 di bumi ini??? gw mulai gak ngertii orang2 yg ada sekitar gw.... ada yg mengatahkan cinta... ada yg mengatahkan rindu... apa siy arti sebuat kata?? apa ada maknanya??? penting gak siyy kata2? WORDS ARE STILL WORDS!
knp siy semua orang suka bener maksain gw??? knp gak ada orang satu pun di bumi ini yg ngerti gw???????? kenapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa??? GW PENGEN PERGI JAUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DARI MUKA BUMI INI!!!!!!!!
apa gw perlu teriak2 sambil bernangis baru orang ngerti bawa gw sedang banyak pikiran dan sudah gak sanggup lagi? kenapa segala sesuatu yg gw perbuat selalu salah?? AM I THAT BAD??? DO I FAIL THAT BADDDD?? WHAT AM I DOING WRONGGGGGG??? SOMEONE PLEASEE TELL!!!!!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
huahhhh... sudah lamaa gak ngebloggg... ada yg gossip saya mau die nikahin pulaaa... ckckckc :P
Well, hari ini berada die rumah barukuh die macau. This place always give me some sense of security, even though it's a part of me that's long been gone. This place used to be where I learn to believe that things will never change, where everything seems to belong and so in reach to me.
However, as I grew up, I learn that there is absolutely nothing that's absolute, other than the earth is round, the sun will always shine even behind the thickest crowd of clouds and that there is a God.
Despite all the circumstances, often it's not a choice, but a must that one has to move on. Some things leaves great impact to one's life, could be good :P, but apparently most of the time it isn't. People say, those that instances that can cause someone to change always are ones that are trumatic. It's often hard to tell ourselves that we have tortured ourselves enough, as we don't often seem to judge ourselves as others truly see us. The bother line between right and wrong is faint that no even a single soul in the world to see. Who is to judge what's right and what's wrong?? Some tribes in the time we live in still believe that eating human flesh of deceased elderly as a respect. But others might see it as psychological disorder.
Well, hari ini berada die rumah barukuh die macau. This place always give me some sense of security, even though it's a part of me that's long been gone. This place used to be where I learn to believe that things will never change, where everything seems to belong and so in reach to me.
However, as I grew up, I learn that there is absolutely nothing that's absolute, other than the earth is round, the sun will always shine even behind the thickest crowd of clouds and that there is a God.
Despite all the circumstances, often it's not a choice, but a must that one has to move on. Some things leaves great impact to one's life, could be good :P, but apparently most of the time it isn't. People say, those that instances that can cause someone to change always are ones that are trumatic. It's often hard to tell ourselves that we have tortured ourselves enough, as we don't often seem to judge ourselves as others truly see us. The bother line between right and wrong is faint that no even a single soul in the world to see. Who is to judge what's right and what's wrong?? Some tribes in the time we live in still believe that eating human flesh of deceased elderly as a respect. But others might see it as psychological disorder.
Some people suffer from physical abuse, others suffer from emotional and verbal abuse. If I were to go through any of abuse I mentioned above, I'd say I'd rather be phyically abuse. Sometimes people dont realise words and hurt someone so deep it leaves a scar with the person for the rest of their lives, and the person lives around circling the wound forever. Leaving the person to drown in their own sorrow. Believe it or not at that instance, God always gives those people a precious gift of love so pure and true.
However.... the person so trumatic too see beyond their own pain and sorrow buried see deep into their soul. The person often fail to see the precious gift. When the true sorrow isn't the words that one's been tortured with before, but letting time and the gift of love slip away. once.... twice.... ..... .... ..... the time continues ticking while the person fail to even notice.
Dont ever let love past you by, just because you can't get over the past.
For the past is definate but the future is infinate.
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
I believe this year is gonna be the year that's gonna have the biggest impact of life. I read a zodiac coloumn a few hours ago, and it states one thing that stayed on my mind
"libra often dont realise what they get themselves into, realizing it only when it's too late to back out"
I wonder if star signs does have such impact on human behaviour? Could the stars really tell what each person born with the same star sign go through the same thing? IF it is, then i might not be the only one that is going through the excat thing. I just wonder how others are coping with it. As i dont have a clue as to have to resolve this.
"libra often dont realise what they get themselves into, realizing it only when it's too late to back out"
I wonder if star signs does have such impact on human behaviour? Could the stars really tell what each person born with the same star sign go through the same thing? IF it is, then i might not be the only one that is going through the excat thing. I just wonder how others are coping with it. As i dont have a clue as to have to resolve this.
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
A path I chose has no turning back, will I regret what I had started?
a sudden rush of memories rush back, as they flashes through my mind. I begin to wonder if I had chosen the right decision.
I had a calendar hanging on my wall, as I looked, it was a calendar which I had left untouched for 5 years, since June 1999. As I stared at it, I begin to realize, that was when my decision of this path had begun, not realizing it had begun, realizing it only when it comes to and end. It's so peculiar that sometimes some decisions are just a mare instance of buying more time. But when our consciousness come into play it'd too late , coz we cannot change the reality any more.
The moral of the story??? Be spontaneous! Be impulsive! Be You !
a sudden rush of memories rush back, as they flashes through my mind. I begin to wonder if I had chosen the right decision.
I had a calendar hanging on my wall, as I looked, it was a calendar which I had left untouched for 5 years, since June 1999. As I stared at it, I begin to realize, that was when my decision of this path had begun, not realizing it had begun, realizing it only when it comes to and end. It's so peculiar that sometimes some decisions are just a mare instance of buying more time. But when our consciousness come into play it'd too late , coz we cannot change the reality any more.
The moral of the story??? Be spontaneous! Be impulsive! Be You !
Monday, June 07, 2004
sepasang suami istri, Sang suami sudah hampir mati, dan sang istri memegangi tangan suaminya. Lalu suaminya berkata:
Suami: "Istriku..."
Istri: "Stss... diamlah... jangan terlalu banyak bicara.. karena akan mengganggu kesehatanmu"
Suami: "Tapi istriku... ada yang perlu aku akui..."
Istri:"tak ada yang perlu diakui lagi.."
Suami: "TIDAK!! kalo aku tidak mengakuinya, maka aku tidak akan meninggal dengan tenang.. Taukah kamu aku telah meniduri kakakmu, ibumu, adikmu, dan temen baikmu.."
Istri: "Aku sudah tau.. maka dari itu aku meracuni kamu!!"
Suami: "Istriku..."
Istri: "Stss... diamlah... jangan terlalu banyak bicara.. karena akan mengganggu kesehatanmu"
Suami: "Tapi istriku... ada yang perlu aku akui..."
Istri:"tak ada yang perlu diakui lagi.."
Suami: "TIDAK!! kalo aku tidak mengakuinya, maka aku tidak akan meninggal dengan tenang.. Taukah kamu aku telah meniduri kakakmu, ibumu, adikmu, dan temen baikmu.."
Istri: "Aku sudah tau.. maka dari itu aku meracuni kamu!!"
If veronika decides to die (Paulo Coelho) and she was given another chance. Would my mistakes be forgiven too? As much as one hopes, when there's no way out but to come out of the nuthole, they'd be forgiven. But when one does come out of d nuthole, will the society ever have the same respect for the person? Veronika had to deal with the consequence of her action that she was to be kept in a mental hospital. Wasn't because she was mad, just a silly action of hers that induce a general stereotyping by human. Abnormality and Normality, is just another stereotype, whose to judge where one belongs in which category.
I read a very interesting story from the book, "a certain amount of potion was added to a common well in a kingdom, which happens to be the source of drinkin water for the whole kingdom. The potion added in, was a potion to turn everyone queer. Everyone in the kingdom drank the water and turned queer. The Royals being in a castle has a seperate well. When everyone in the kingdom turned queer, only the royals could see the truth. However, since everyone was already queer, the ones that was view queer by the community, was the royals. When the Royals attempt to implement some changes to fix the current situation, everyone in the community lost their respect for the royals. The Royals which they once respected. They rebelled and requested for the royals to leave their throne." Do you think the royals should leave their throne, or to keep their throne, but drink from the common well and to turn queer only to seem normal to the rest of the kingdom and to keep their throne?
It's often hard to decide which decision to make and which decision to go foward with. However, either ways one is forced to choose, coz, "Everyone" need to belong in a category. "Normal or Abnormal" But who should be the judge?
I read a very interesting story from the book, "a certain amount of potion was added to a common well in a kingdom, which happens to be the source of drinkin water for the whole kingdom. The potion added in, was a potion to turn everyone queer. Everyone in the kingdom drank the water and turned queer. The Royals being in a castle has a seperate well. When everyone in the kingdom turned queer, only the royals could see the truth. However, since everyone was already queer, the ones that was view queer by the community, was the royals. When the Royals attempt to implement some changes to fix the current situation, everyone in the community lost their respect for the royals. The Royals which they once respected. They rebelled and requested for the royals to leave their throne." Do you think the royals should leave their throne, or to keep their throne, but drink from the common well and to turn queer only to seem normal to the rest of the kingdom and to keep their throne?
It's often hard to decide which decision to make and which decision to go foward with. However, either ways one is forced to choose, coz, "Everyone" need to belong in a category. "Normal or Abnormal" But who should be the judge?
