I cam across the word lonliness today... Didn't really think much about it, until I had to talk about it on air. It kept me wondering do I feel lonely??

People might begin to see me as being too far away, and distant from the world, and being in my nutshell for far too often. I met someone really great a few days ago, turns out there are people whom are excatly like me. Which means that being in my own bubble or my nutshell doesn't mean that I'm lonely, I'm just a person that loves my personal space.

These few years has really changed me, from a person who's enemy with loneliness to a person that has became friends and made such deal with it. So proud of myself :P I have became a person that's cold, far too cold that I could ever thought a person could ever be :P But well, I get to feel the ying and yang of both sides, even though I don't intend to stay here forever, but I know, for now, this is where I wanna be....

It takes something very impactable to ever change a person, both views and perceptions and being. I would say not alot of people have influenced or changed me, although I have in some ways build some particular perceptions based on what I have felt could be good for myself. But there are a few people that did changed me totally. At that point in time, I really thought I was totally right about everything, maybe I'm just so used to making my own decisions, having to trust my own instings.

Being spoiled isn't an option, but it's something that feels great, but in the end, we dont realize we become far too dependant on it. And when we lose that pillar in our lives we become lost, I make an oath to myself that I will always learn to be dependant only to myself. But how dependant should one be to oneself, without coming across being to cold and becoming an Iceberg??