If one could be treated with respect would you allow people to treat you like trash? When everyone else and everything else is more important than you, would you still allow people to treat you that way?? Always having the left overs, having to serve everyone else before yourself, where you could surviving comfortably without any of their help? Why then should one not rebel against what they are faced upon.

I feel like I wanna run,
but I have no place to run nor hide.
when the only comfort turns against me
and refuse to even listen,
I am here yet alone again,
listening to my pulse, waiting for a revolution.

Have I just became someone that I used to hate?
A self pitying, helpless, person whom seem to brag about the same thing over and over,
but yet not do anything about it?
Now I begin to understand the pressure and the feeling.
No one truly understand what one has to go through other than themselves.


Being Fat and Invisible

It's so funny how fatter people tend to become invisible to others, not mentioning the physical size. I've been The GirL, where all eyes as I walk. And I've been the Invisible GirL, where I'm almost non existent. I would say I'm a happy person no matter what i physically appear to people. It turns out there's a limit to that. It's so amazing I had never view it this way. But I promised myself I would not allow others to make me in anyway, to change my perception as to how I should be, or how I should look. So glad to be in control, So glad to be able to feel good about myself.